I walk a little slower, watching you with each careful step.

I take a little longer, as you move through the crowd.

I let my eyes skip carefully from you back to the ground.

Once you have noticed me, your words ringing in my ears with a beautiful sound.

Almost like rituals I do everyday.

I wait for you to say……….something.

You do, like you’re in my head.

It hits me like a brick made of lead.

You say the name of some other girl, the one I think’s a rat.

My stomach pangs hard like my heart, because all I could manage to say is

Please do not say that